I Guess by Ayaan Mandal

It all started in class 7 when i first met in aunty’s tution….. I and my friends were playing throw ball. Suddenly the ball came and hit me… My friends shouted partly at me and at her… I found a topic worthy to be thought….
School days followed with acquaintance..

Then on one fine day a teacher came to know about my feelings towards her and reported it to her parents… I stopped talking to her on the advice of my mother… Six months went and i started to miss her… badly indeed…
Then one day i reacquainted myself with her. After that minor quarrels took place between us… By this time it was end of class nine… I was preparing myself for the exams… Phone lines were closed for me… She was studious too.
Class nine passed. In class ten i was like… wow.. a good friend of her….

I proposed her early on phone in class nine… but never ever asked about it or forced her to take a decision. I wanted it the nat way… In class ten we avoided talking in front of the teachers
and all… By this time endless number of my so called well wishers brain washed me…. I was deviated as usual…

Then on second of August.. two days before her birthday… I fucked it all up… I straightly went to her and bought tears in her eyes by expressing my anger… God how i managed myself… I was feeling like a dumb stick idiot…
But what i commit i do… It was like a challenge for me to forget her…. Next… Before exams she came to me guarding myself and herself from the eyes of the parents and teachers… Without much ado she spitted out what she wanted to… but it was still a friendship deal….

After that secret meetings continued…
But …. a good friend of mine.. whom i told to assist me in meeting with her… started liking me and started to screw up the case….. But it was all r8. recently she told my friend that a guy named Jay had proposed her and if she started considering him the i would loose… I got freaked out so much that i came down to even suicide… But then my inner man told me that u are not doing justice to your parents…. they have many a expectations from you…
I dropped the blade… Next day i asked her. She told that this was true that jay proposed her but she refused it.. I made her promise to stay with me…. be it as a friend…..

Now its all done… We are spending good time together…. I feel kind of real when she is around me… I see truth in those eyes….
Today(9/12/2011) her friend told me that she loved me from the very beginning and
also she promised her not to disclose it … Especially to me… I do not know…

Does she really love me???