Lets Play Catch-Up

Hi there all you love bloggers! Seeing as how this is my very first post here, I thought I’d catch you up on oh, say, the last 18 months of my life. Without all of that, it can be hard to see why I appreciate what I’ve got going on now–so lets step back to January of 2008. I had been single for about a year and a half, maybe even a little more. I was 22 at the time and had been in and out of several relationships, none of them lasting very long, and none of them getting very serious. I had dated plenty of guys (which may be surprising considering I’m a plus size girl) but most of them only wanted one thing–sex, and thats not what I was interested in. So needless to say, I, like thousands of other girls, was looking for ‘the one’. I had been living with my cousin at the time and her boyfriend knew a single guy that he worked with, so he decided to set us up. I met Mike a few days after talking to him on the phone and things went pretty well on our first date and we decided to keep seeing each other. He lived about an hour and a half away so we would text and talk on the phone during the week and since he was only off every other weekend, he would usually stay at my place on my days off. He was willing to pay for things which was nice, but it pretty much ended there. Days would go by and I wouldn’t hear from him. I’d leave him message after message and get nothing in return. My birthday came around in March and he did actually show up for that, but then that was the last time I ever saw him. He pretty much fell off the face of the earth. My cousins boyfriend still saw him at work, but he wouldn’t really talk to him. Mike broke so many promises and took my virginity and I then I never heard from him again. Slighty heartbroken, it was a few months before I was ready to take the leap again. I posted an ad on Craigslist and waited. I met one guy from there who I dated for about two weeks, but he was such a creep, I told him it was over. He was always trying to feel me up and I was afraid he was going to rape me. I moved after I left him and he found out where. One day when I was leaving to go to work, I found brand new 4 in bolts behind my tires. Had I not seen them, I would have had 4 very flat tires. Then in the beginning of October 2008, I received a response from Ryan. We chated online for a few weeks and decided to meet. Things clicked and before you knew it we were living together, although looking back I know that was one of my biggest mistakes. We moved way to fast and I didn’t do my homework before I allowed him to move in. Things went great for a while and then I found out he was bi-polar, which I could live with, but he refused to take meds for it. I also found out after the fact that he was in jail and into drugs (just my luck). He didn’t have his own cell phone when we were dating so I stupidly gave him one to use. For some reason that I fail to see now, I had loved him with all my heart and was willing to do everything for him. He was unemployed and couldn’t afford anything so I paid the house payment, utilities, paid for food, gas in his car, his bowling league, gave him that cell phone, and more. I guess I was just so happy to be in a relationship I didn’t care at the time. Looking back, I don’t know how I was so happy. He never wanted to spend time with me, he would stay up and play on the computer all night and sleep all day. He was always in a bad mood. What the hell was I thinking?? Then in February (after he had finally gotten a job and been working there for a couple weeks) he wouldn’t come home until 4 in the morning a few nights a week. He said he was out with friends, and I accepted that–until I got the cell phone bill. He had been texting an out of area number all day everyday and had gone over $200 over his texting plan. I found this out the day before Valentines Day and was going to confront him that day, but he never came home. I called and texted with no response. I did a little digging and found out that the number that he was texting and calling was girl he worked with–he was having an affair. He came home the next day (Valentines Day) to tell me he was leaving me. I was heartbroken and devastated. Not to mention as a result of everything I had given up for him, I was losing everything I had worked for. Once he had gotten a job he was supposed to start contributing and paying me back, which I never saw one cent of. So, I ended up losing my house that I loved, was thousands of dollars in debt, not to mention he stole some of my valuable things when he moved out. I cried for days after the fact, although now I really just can’t understand what I was so upset about. I wasn’t really losing anything thing–he took everything I had, what was left to lose? I was so physically and emotionally drained from this relationship. I quickly went from heartbroken to furious when I found out about all his infidelity and how his best friend looked me in the face and lied to me. I don’t really know if it was my being furious or wanting a boyfriend so badly that I went back to craiglist. Fail me once, shame on you–fail me twice, shame on me. On February 21st, 2009 I came across a male listing–”Country Boys Seeks Female”. I read it and was interested and sent a replying inquiring more about him. On February 23rd, I received a reply back. For a month and a half Country Boy Cory and I sent daily emails back and fourth and also talked on yahoo instant messanger. After that month and half, he asked me out, and I said yes. We had our first date on April 10th. My type has always been the tall boys, but I was unprepared for just how tall Cory was when I opened the door to my apartment. I’m what I consider to be average height (5’5”) and Cory is 6’9”, almost a foot and a half taller than me! I dont’ know where I intitally thought the relationship was going to go, but I think I was unprepared for how fast I would fall in love with the farm boy from Apple River…

To be continued….

Sweetheart Sara